Location: Heart of Haynesville RV Park; Mansfield, Louisiana
I just posted the first part of the memories and wow's of the trip and still working on part 2. It's strange though, I find myself typing up thoughts and stories as they pop in my head. There does't seem to be any rhyme or reason to when or where they come from. The one I'm about to post came to me as I was waking up the other morning. After I turned my laptop on, I typed it up in about 30 minutes and 2 cups of coffee.
Oh well, this blog and my facebook account is a good place to put these stories/thoughts/ramblings down for the grandkids to see in the future.
Here we go:
Smiles and Life’s Curves
It was late evening and he sat in the diner just as he had
every evening for the last several months. His head was down and he was staring
into an empty coffee cup trying to figure out his life. How did he get here?
Where did his life take such a drastic curve? He knew the answer, but was still
in the denial phase. That curve occurred a year ago today. But, that was just
the latest curve in his life. To fully understand where he was, he would need
to go back farther. Ten years farther back; back to the early days of his
freshman year in college. His adult life was just starting and he planned to be
a Geologist. Studying rocks and their strange formations had always interested
him and he wanted to learn more. Then that curve happened. She smiled at him.
Of course, the “She” was a girl with
long brown hair and deep brown eyes. It was only later on that she corrected me
by saying it was auburn color. At that time she could have told me it was
purple and I would have agreed with her. I saw her for the first time as she
was walking to class. I changed my direction so I could “accidently” intercept
her with hopes of meeting her. I miscalculated and missed her by about ten
yards before she entered the education building. I couldn’t follow her, not in
there, not in the education building. I was going to be a geologist, not a
teacher. Little did I know, but that curve I mentioned was still curving. I
planned better the next day although waiting around in the same place for
several hours may not be considered a plan. In fact, it was probably closer to
stalking, but I didn’t care. There she was again, going to that same building.
I hurried this time to make sure I was standing on the steps when she arrived.
I casually said “Hi”. She stopped, looked at me and said, “Oh, hi” and then
smiled. There is always a smile. I guess it is life’s way of signaling that
something is going to change and hopefully for the better. Still trying to act
cool and hoping she couldn’t hear my heart beating like crazy, I reached into
my pocket and brought out a Reese’s Peanut Butter Cup. I offered it to her and
that smile immediately turned into a frown. With her nose turned up and head
turning away, she said, “Oh my goodness, how can you eat those things, they
taste like dirt?” That threw me for a loop since they were my favorite candy
and I had never heard of anyone that didn’t like them. But then she smiled
again as I told her “I agree with you” and threw the Reese’s in the trash can.
For the rest of our lives together I became a “closet Reese’s eater” and
couldn’t enjoy them if she was anywhere close by. She sensed my confusion and
said, “I thought we might go to class together. You are an education major
aren’t you”? Any guesses as to my answer? Would I strongly stand up for geology
and subtly put down education as a lowly major? You bet I didn’t. I couldn’t.
Not after she smiled at me. I said, “Of course I am but that I had to go to the
Administration Building first”.
Four
years after I changed my major from geology to education, we both graduated
with honors with our education degrees. Within a week of graduation we married
and accepted jobs at the same school as elementary grade teachers. Life was
great. I was a teacher by profession but a “rock hound” by hobby. We talked
about the kids we were teaching and the parents we met at “meet the teacher”
meetings. As the years passed, we became excellent teachers and one or the
other of us routinely won “Teacher of the Year” awards. On our tenth wedding
anniversary we decided it was time to expand our own family. She went to the
doctor for a check-up to make sure everything was fine. The doctor noticed that
she coughed a few times during the visit and asked her about it. She said, she
had been coughing like that for a few weeks and she thought maybe she picked up
something from one of the kids. The doctor said, “Why don’t we check” and sent
her to the X-ray department. After the doctors visit, she called me. Everything
is a blur from that moment to now. Something about a spot on her lung, cancer,
surgery, chemo, hospital, terminal. At the end, she lay in the hospital bed and
we both knew the end was near. She looked at me with those same deep brown
eyes, smiled, said “I wish I was leaving you with a child so you won’t feel so
alone when I’m gone but we just ran out of time. I love you.” With my “I love
you” hanging softly in the air, she peacefully drifted away. As I sat there
looking at her and holding her hand, I could feel her leave. I knew my life had
just changed but was unsure of how much. I sat there for what seemed like days
but was really only minutes before nurses rushed in and escorted me out.
Rosemarie
loudly asked me if I wanted more coffee. I blankly stared at her and asked why
she was yelling. She said, “I’ve asked you four times but it was clear you were
in a different world”. I apologized and said, “No thanks, just give me a few
Reese’s and I’ll check out”. She said, “I’ll check you out as soon as I finish
with Nadia”. It was then that I noticed the pretty woman with brown hair and
brown eyes paying her bill. As she was about to leave, Rosemarie handed me my
Reese’s. Seeing them, the woman turned her nose up and was clearly disgusted.
She didn’t say a word and was expressionless as she left the diner. Rosemarie
laughed and said, “She sure gave you the cold shoulder”. I agreed and asked if
she knew anything about the woman since Rosemarie knew everyone in town.
Rosemarie started in by saying, “She’s
new to town. Only been here less than a year. Poor thing will be raising that
baby by herself since her husband died in that accident. I reckon she is still
grieving.” I glanced out the window as the woman got in her car and drove away.
I looked back at Rosemarie and asked what accident? I really didn’t want to
know but it just seemed like the thing to ask. She said she wasn’t sure about
the details, but it was an accident where he worked as a Geologist. Curve?
Life went on and day by day, month by
month I slowly recovered from the loss of my wife. I continued teaching because
in a way it was like I was continuing the life my wife had wanted for both of
us. I never thanked her for choosing my major with her smile, but I should have
done so. My students became my surrogate children and I often thought, “My wife
was wrong when she said she didn’t leave me a child before she left. She left
me hundreds”.
About six years later I was in class
preparing for “meet the teacher” meetings that evening. It was near the end of
the day and I was tired. As a present to the children for their good behavior,
I walked around and gave each of them a Reese’s Peanut Butter Cup. As I sat
down at my desk, Millie approached me and handed me the Reese’s. Millie looked
at me with those deep brown eyes and said, “Thank you for the candy, but my Mama
says these taste like dirt”. I was blown away and immediately transported back
in time to meeting my wife as well as seeing that pregnant woman. They were the
only two people that I had ever known that didn’t like Reese’s. I asked Millie
if her parents were coming to “meet the teacher” night. She said, “yes, Mama is
coming but I don’t have a Dad”.
The last parent to enter my room that evening
was a brown haired woman with dark brown eyes. Although it had been six years,
I knew right away it was the pregnant woman from the diner. As she approached
me, I said, “You have very pretty auburn hair”. She touched her hair and
smiled. And you know what happens when women smile, curves happen.
Darrell Goza
September
22, 2024
Ya'll take care of each other. Maybe I'll Cya down the road.
Very good Darrell, very good. I had a tear in my eye as his wife passed, and the ending cheered me up. I think you're really getting the hang of this short story thing Darrell, and the way I can tell is, you're able to do it so easily, which means to me that it comes natural to you. Keep it up, maybe you can put them all together and write a book.
ReplyDeleteTom
Auburn, he learned something.. great story!
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